Story #62. Born To Die

Come and take a walk on the wild side. Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain. You like your girls insane. Choose your last words.

This is the last time… ‘Cause you and I, we were born to die… (Lana del Ray)

This is such a nice place in the morning! Been months I spent my sunday morning here for falun dafa, but don’t talk to me about my consistency practicing falun dafa. I am at the lowest level. Some people practicing yoga and tai chi here, and also aerobic 😅. Yeah, aerobic. The one with a loud music. Hard beat, also screams sometimes, while other excercises use only such instrumental. I sit down here waiting for my partner to come. With that loud music from the aerobic corner, I find it is not easy to concentrate here, but it’s a challange , I guess. Whatever. I used to come to this place years ago, spent the night with bunch of friends. I was early 20es, young, naif, and stupid! Late in the afternoon till drop this place is a hawker center. There are some restaurant as well, including two fancy korean restaurant, which I don’t like any, for me, Bornga is still the best! 

Sometimes I wonder and imagine randome things. Like the second I sit  here, listening to Lana del Ray singing we were born to die. My memory’s back to random moments in the past. What should a human do in their live if we were only born to die? What do they search? Why can’t we choose the way we die? I remember my 10years old nephew give a thought about death, he said “What makes people die? I mean, in what term God is taking someone’s live? A new born baby can die as well as an adult die cause of ill. A baby isn’t yet living a life, an adult might not yet enough time to do good things for people around, not enough chances to do awesome things in life. Kalo aku yang meninggal gimana? Baru umur segini, rasanya naik bajaj aja belom tau.” It was a stupid couple minute shocking moment for me as I never expect such question come from a kid. 

Well, technically we’re all were born to die. But life is about how we live the life, how we feel, how we deal. I believe that before we born, we’re all a free spirit. And then right before the universe magically blows us into a woman’s womb, turn us into fetus, we have had deal about whatever we face in life. It include happy and sad, up and down, consequences of options we take, chances, wtf. The second we born, it was like we push a reset button. We don’t remember what we had deal with the universe. We’re all an empty mind, growth to learn and to search our own meaning in life. To feel pain, to live the drama, to fullfil the emptyness of our souls. 

I’ve walk at the darkest and wildest side of my life. I can’t see what’s in front of me, all I know is to keep walking… 

…Would you walk with me? Be alive with me, let me kiss you hard under the pouring rain… We can lay down somewhere under the sky, don’t you know every second we look up to the sky is a handmade view from the universe just for us? If there’s another second I look up after you kiss my lips, the universe capture me another view. I wanna hear you whisper me your last word, perhaps this is the last time, cause we were born to die.


See you in the next stories 😉



Hi there,

Again, I get caught by a song. I was working on my design when I first time hear this song. The melody is nice, I always love an acoustic ballad like I hear in the beginning of the song. And the lyrics… wow…exactly describe what I’m feeling at the moment 🙂 Check this song by this link The lyrics is simply amazing. I wonder the story of behind this song, cause it addicted to listen.

You know just what to say
Shit, that scares me
I should just walk away but I can’t move my feet
The more that I know you, the more I want to
Something inside me’s changed
I was so much younger yesterday, oh

I didn’t know that I was starving ’til I tasted you
Don’t need no butterflies when you give me the whole damn zoo
By the way, by the way, you do things to my body
I didn’t know that I was starving ’til I tasted you

You know just how to make my heart beat faster
Emotional earthquake, bring on disaster
You hit me head on, got me weak in my knees
Yeah, something inside me’s changed
I was so much younger yesterday, aye
So much younger yesterday, oh, yeah

As I might have an at least silver medal for a fall record, this song is execute a feeling in to words. A feeling to fall with somebody new. Very new one. Make my heart beat faster, totally bring disaster cause he messed up my mind.  The words “I didn’t know that I was starving ’til I tasted you” is the best I wanna hear today as i am trapped in such moment.

Happy weekend, everyone!

See you in my next episode of life,


Story #26. Must Listen to this Jazz song: “Maybe”


Lately i often listening to jazz song while working and i found this song accidentally. This song was sang by Monita, success to catch my attention. You can listen it up by this link and this is the lyrics


The mistesy, the misery

That was I see, that magicly never give up all the gold memory

If you’re maybe the one to be who promised me under big tree

Then we’ll be fine together happily

So, maybe we can bang together

Or (then), maybe we can fly the car

Then (or), maybe underneath the brand new life the answer will come simply straight as a life

The one in my heart


By this couple days i’ve been listen it up for about 10 times! The song and the way Monita’s sing it has deliver my….mmm…what can i call it, childhood dream and imagination about the magic of love? : p hahahha….